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| Written by OHmommy | |
| Wednesday, 05 November 2008 19:00 | |
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Quiet down. Lower your voice. Stop yelling. Hush. Inside voice. Zip it. Words I say to Lola each and every day of her life. The girl is loud. I have even admitted it a million times on my blog "Lola comes in one volume. Loud." Being loud is part of her personality. Or so I thought. Turns out that Lola can't hear well. "Lola isn't a very good listener at circle time." Her preschool teacher pulled me aside one day. "How many times a day does she say WHAT?" My husband asked me over the weekend. "Geez, why is it so loud in your house? Is that Lola?" My brother asked me over the phone. Two mornings ago, I tried to have a conversation with her while she was under her blanket in bed and she had no idea I was standing in the room. I called our ENT doctor that morning. "My four and a half year old daughter had tubes put in as a toddler. And now, well... I am always screaming to get her attention. I think she might not hear well." I spoke to the receptionist who got us an appointment the very next day. Turns out that Lola can't hear well. The fluid in her ears is so severe that she can hear 40% of what I can. The audiologist showed me a chart where it had Lola's results from her hearing test after getting tubes put in her ears years ago, she was near the top. She then showed me the same chart with today's results and the squiggly pathetic line occupied the 40% spot. "I am surprised she can hear you at all." Turns out that Lola can't hear well. I keep saying that over and over to myself feeling rather guilty that my mommy instincts didn't pick up on this earlier. When her teacher told me that she wasn't a good listener I called my mother to joke about it. When Lola asked "What?" for the 49th time in one day I yelled, "Can you not hear me talking to you? Is there something wrong with your ears?" I could dig my own grave with the guilt I feel. However, just like with any problem in life I am going to use it as a lesson learned. I learned my lesson. Listen to your mommy instincts and act. Lola is scheduled for surgery next week as she undergoes an adenoidectomy (removing swollen adenoids) and another set of ear tubes will be placed in her ears to drain the excessive amount of fluid build up. She might have a swollen throat after wards and she will be able to hear. Sing. Laugh. Louder. More. Do it again. Louder now. More, Lola, sing some more but this time louder! Words I am going to say to Lola each and every day of her life. The girl is loud. And she will be able to hear.  And. She wasn't seeking attention as the middle child. Instead, she was trying to tell me something. I need to turn up her volume and listen.
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